tomorrows holiday

tomorrow is thanksgiving and i am heading to montana to be with one of my dearest friends and to share my blessings with her and her son...however, we will be celebrating with one less body at the table, miss hanna.

we all work tirelessly to keep the dream alive and make sure hanna and her legacy are fresh on everyone's mind.  we have submitted our story to people, oprah, ellen and countless other magazines. we are searching for the perfect way to tell the truth, the truth about hanna, her life and what she still brings to this world.

i have been sad lately.  i have cried.  i fear i won't be able to be there for her mom if she needs me.  i hope i will.

i miss hanna this holiday season and i pray for strength as we share this first holiday without our girl.

Update on Friday, December 18, 2009 at 7:00PM by Lori Luna

well, as i suspected i did not make it through the day without a breakdown, just keeping it real i suppose.

time heals

it is said that time heals all wounds.  i sit here and wonder - does it?  today i thought a lot about hanna and i cried.  i thought of her mom, one of my best friends, and i wonder how she does it?  how does robin do it?  i was sad today when i thought of our hanna.  i thought of her silly laughter, how she loved to be the center of attention and how she would pose at a moments notice for the camera.

i thought of her dream of helping others and how that dream is now left for us, the one's left behind, to carry on.

i thought about the grieving process and how everyone does it different.  i wondered aloud, "how does robin do it?".  she has so much on her plate right now and yet every day she gets out of bed, runs her business and cares for her son.  i have a far less dramatic life and i am overwhelmed by the loss of hanna.  robin handles all of this will grace and dignity - i so envy her.

i thought about the years to come and how our hanna won't be here to create more memories; how she will forever be the 6 year old little girl whose smile could light a room.  i miss you terribly today and i'm waiting dear "time" - you can start healing whenever you like.