2011?

2011?  Wow.  I am now sounding very old because I am sitting here thinking - "when did this happen?"

If I take a minute and look back I will find a very good year.  I have an amazing job, work with fabulous people, have made new friends, reconnected with old friends and frankly, I have the best family out there.

I am still working on Hanna's Dream (albeit slowly) and it still gives me the same level of joy - - I often think of how lucky I am to be "allowed" to be part of something so special.  I talked at length with Hanna's mom today (not too unusual) and I think, "I still don't know how she does it - - everyday".  How does she find the strength?  And yet, today she said, "it's been a good year".  She is a strong amazing woman and like so many of my friends, I draw strength from her.

The end of this year will bring a much needed vacation in Sedona, AZ - a lovely spa resort and four blissful days of nothingness - - it really is a good life.

I wish you nothing but a safe and happy 2011 - - take it all in, life is short.

forgiveness

It's been said that forgiveness is more for those who are forgiving than those who need to be forgiven.  Hmmm...I wonder if that is so? 

I have been "wronged" more times than I care to remember but as I get older I am less bitter and more forgiving.  Does this mean that I forget?  Not even close.  It merely means that rather than holding on to the pain, I let it go.  I see the person for their faults and humanity and see them for the flawed human being that I am...again, hmmm...if only those I have wronged would see it the same way.

Dear Universe, what say you?

father's day - 2010

Today is father's day and I am missing my dad.  He is in southern California and I am northern California.  I've been here for almost 7 years now and that means I have missed 6 father's day's.  Six.  I used to take my dad out to do whatever he wanted.  We would go to dinner the night before or brunch on the Sunday - - regardless, I was there.

I am starting to miss being there.  Not sure I miss it enough to move - - but I am sad today. 

Sorry I'm not there Dad, but I love you bunches.

laughter "is" the best medicine

I have been laughing more lately.  I have smiled a lot too.  There are some good things happening right now and I have decided to stop and enjoy - get out of my own way.  It feels good - - it feels right.  In a world where so much is wrong, it seems like we (translation - I) need to actually enjoy.  So, I am.

Dear Universe, I have listened - - I shall stop - smile - laugh - live.  And a favorite quote by Mark Twain:

Sing like no one's listening, love like you've never been hurt, dance like nobody's watching, and live like it's heaven on earth.

Nothing on my mind these days.  Lack of drive.  Motivation.  Desire.  I'm busy with other things right now, mostly work, so my creative mind is asleep. I hope this won't last too long - - I'm behind on my book schedule. 

Dear Universe, rescue me!