forgiveness

It's been said that forgiveness is more for those who are forgiving than those who need to be forgiven.  Hmmm...I wonder if that is so? 

I have been "wronged" more times than I care to remember but as I get older I am less bitter and more forgiving.  Does this mean that I forget?  Not even close.  It merely means that rather than holding on to the pain, I let it go.  I see the person for their faults and humanity and see them for the flawed human being that I am...again, hmmm...if only those I have wronged would see it the same way.

Dear Universe, what say you?

really?

I cannot believe this has happened...AGAIN!  I thought I was past the Wednesday and a half experience.  I thought at 42 the games were over.  "He" said there were no games...he said he was "in" only to literally have him stop calling...no excuse, no story, no explanation - just gone.

We had talked, daily.  He was my smile.  He was my joy.  He said he cared.  He said more.  Ah, so much more.  And then, he fell short.  He had his own demons, his own issues, his own pain and in the end it was all about him - I was not important, I was a blip on the radar. 

My radar was different.  He didn't just come into my life he stormed.  He said - - oh, does it matter what he said?  No not really.  They were words - just words. 

Goodbye my friend - I miss you.  I shall always miss you. 

laughter "is" the best medicine

I have been laughing more lately.  I have smiled a lot too.  There are some good things happening right now and I have decided to stop and enjoy - get out of my own way.  It feels good - - it feels right.  In a world where so much is wrong, it seems like we (translation - I) need to actually enjoy.  So, I am.

Dear Universe, I have listened - - I shall stop - smile - laugh - live.  And a favorite quote by Mark Twain:

Sing like no one's listening, love like you've never been hurt, dance like nobody's watching, and live like it's heaven on earth.