until we meet again
Sunday, August 2, 2009 at 1:35PM 
i received a text today from my friend - his grandma died. he was sad, he is sad. he said he had been preparing for this for a while now and his preparation did not actually prepare him at all. he said he couldn't truly understand why this was so hard and then he realized - he just lost his friend. his confidant, his ally in this fight we call life.
i remember her. she was kind. funny. sweet. she was a grandma. it reminded me of losing my grandparents - all of them. some died when i was very young, my great-grandmother died when i was 6 and some stayed with me until i was 37 and that was it. my grandparents were all gone.
my memories of all of them are "mostly" good. some are just memories that they were here - nothing out of the ordinary or unique. i miss some more than others, but in all, i just miss them.
i try to grasp why they all died so young and i think it's because they were always old. it was different then. 40 was old. my one grandmother had dentures when i was 8. people didn't take care of themselves very well. i digress.
this is a message to my friend - let your memories keep those lost near and dear to your heart - they are with us as long as we keep them in our hearts.
until then. rcj. in random thoughts
Reader Comments (1)
Yes the memories are all that we have left and they are worth everything! Well actually, they are not all we have left. We/ I have hurt, sadness, emptiness and worst of all longing. God I hope the later parts go away soon. Each one in and among themselves is the pain for all pains.